Sunday, October 17, 2010

Dare to fly, little Dandelion!

Once upon a time, there live a Dandelion flower in the middle of a field.
When the Dandelion is young, it appears as a bright beautiful yellow flower.


But as the Dandelion grew older, the little petals changed into thousand of little Dandelion seeds,
these are the Dandelion sons and daughters.



When the right time comes,
the wind will come over and blow away the Dandelion seeds.
The proud mother Dandelion will cheers for her sons and daughters as they fly,
"Fly away my babies, fly away.. and live your own life in this beautiful world,
my prayers will always be with you!"



But, there was this little Dandelion daughter, the tiniest and littlest of them all,
still attached to her mother,
She refuse to fly and leave her.
"Mother, I'm scared! I don't want to go, I wanna stay here with you!" She cried.
The Dandelion mother try to make her daughter to fly but she really doesn't want to go.
The mother Dandelion then gave up, knowing that
the little Dandelion daughter need more time before she could be brave enough,
to fly on her own.



That one night,
When there's only the two of them now,
the mother Dandelion tells her daughter a story,

" When I was a child, I live with my mother, brothers and sisters near a train station, just like all of you, we're all become too big for our mother and we couldn't live with her anymore,
so, one day we kiss her goodbye and fly away.."

"Mother, aren't you scared to live you life alone?" asked the little Dandelion

"I was.. but I know I have to be brave. The world is too beautiful to hide away from. I had an amazing journey once I left, I saw so many beautiful places, so many beautiful people,
I learn about things that I never know before, and do things that I never dreams to do
I fly over the mountains top, I fly among the blooming flowers,
and I fly above the busy streets of city"



"Sometimes, when it gets too cold and lonely, I'll rest on the top of the roof,
and sleep under the stars and the moon, I know I'll never be alone"

"Then I'll continue my journey, until I've found the place to settle down and
spend the rest of my life. Now, it's my turn to see you all fly and go on your own adventures"

The little Dandelion is so inspired by her mother's story that she's no longer feel scared.
"What an amazing life you have there, mother! I promise when the next wind comes, I'll fly away and have my very own adventure!"

As soon as she says that, the wind comes and blow away the little Dandelion. She cried goodbye to her mother and promise her that she'll live a happy life, just like her mother did.

The mother Dandelion is very happy for her daughter, although she knows that she's all alone now.

***the end***



Maybe I'm just as..
scared as the little Dandelion,
I don't want to grow up, I don't want to leave you
Maybe
I don't want to go to my own adventure
knowing that you'll be alone at home
Maybe all I want is to be a little child again.
so that I can stay by your side forever.
But you want me to fly away and have a better life than you have

So like the small little Dandelion,
I'll be brave and fly away,
make my own journey
and live the best life I possibly could.

I love you, mother.

3 Little Stars in the Sky.



I remember back at home,
Sometimes at night,
I went out to, kawasan 'telaga' rumah kami,
where there's no roof and we can see the sky,

Sometimes in a very clear night,
When there's no clouds above,
there are hundreds and hundreds of stars,
sparkling and gleaming.
all looking down at me

Among all the stars,
I would always notice these three little stars,
lying in one straight line.
How cute!

I always think that the three little stars,
represent each of us,
one for me,
one for you
and one for you.

Those stars were always up there,
each time I looked up at the sky.
I wonder if they are still there now.
Can anyone look for them and tell me?



Here,
I wish I could go out at night and find those stars again
But, I never have a chance to do that.
I don't think I can see those three little stars in UK

How I wish I could go back home and
see our stars again.





I'm okay,
It's just Sometimes,
I miss you too much~

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Heart-broken.

Dah satu bulan dan empat hari ak duduk di bumi UK ni.

Satu bulan? Cepatnya masa berlalu..
Jadi x susah sangat la nak duduk sini 3 tahun..
Ak sangat gembira sebab ak belum rasa homesick sangat lagi..
Terbukti Faiqah sangat silap...

Malam ini ak sangat sakit.
Heart-broken.
Bukan sebab siapa-siapa,
bukan sebab kawan, bukan sebab boyfriend, -memang x da boyfriend pon-

sebab rasa takut dan kesunyian.

takut dengan masa,
takut nak hidup disini keseorangan,
takut tiada tempat nak mengadu,
takut x boleh nak uruskan hidup sendiri.

Hey, kakak sangat rindu Mi...
Teringat mimpi tu..
mimpi ak dgn adik no.2 ak pergi jalan-jalan satu tempat ni..
tiba-tiba dia bagitau Mi pun ada kat tempat tu,
lepas tu dia ajak ak untuk terus sambung jalan..
ak teragak-agak.. ak bagitau dia, ak nak sangat jumpa Mi,
dah lama sangat rasanya x tengok Mi..
dia pun kata,"Okaylah.."
tapi ak terjaga sebelum kita sempat jumpa..

bila ak bangun, terasa sangat sedih,
kenapa dalam mimpi pun kita x boleh berjumpa?

Ak teringat masa kat Ipda,
ada satu hari tu,
mesej2 dengan adik bongsu ak,
tetiba ada satu ayat dia yg tulis,
"bila nak balik? ak nok main The Sims, lama doh x main.. rindula.."

Rasa hari tu jugak nak balik,
nak bagi laptop ak kat dia,

Perkataan RINDU tu terlalu dahsyat bagi ak..
biarpun dia x rindu kat ak.. tapi bila dia sebut perkataan itu,
ak sangat2 sedih.

Dan masa kat Ipda hari tu,
Masa cuti tahun baru Cina tu, ak x balik,
Teringat masa tengah brcakap telefon dengan Mi,
"Kakak x balik cuti ni.." ak dengar Mi cakap kat 2 orang tu..dengan nada kecewa
ahh, sedihnya..
tapi waktu tu ak dah janji nk teman Nazihah pergi rumah Pak cik dia..



Sekarang?

Bila kita boleh berjumpa lagi?

Sekarang semua dah besar..

sorang merantau ke sini,
sorang merantau ke sana
sorang bakal tinggalkan rumah satu hari nanti

kadang-kadang ak selalu berharap
untuk pulang balik waktu kecil2 dulu
tinggal di rumah dan bermain sama-sama.



Ak tahu suatu hari nanti, kita semua akan terpisah dan teruskan 'perjalanan' seorang diri
ak cuma minta sedikit masa lagi dengan kamu.






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