Happy x Sad

But.. what if the 'thing' that makes me sad, is also the same 'thing' that makes me happy?

Real-life doll???

Yikes! For a second, I must say I was burning with jealousy when I first saw this picture-perfect girl. How can someone be soo lucky!! ~urghh >_<

She looks like a real life doll, with super-cute face and super-slim figure. I really thought she's Caucasian or half Asian at first -cuz Asian don't have that nose!-, but turns out she's a full Chinese girl (eh??)

I started to dig out more info on this girl (and yes, this is absolutely time-wasting activity but I'm just a curious-cat~ meow!) and found out that this girl is just your everyday school girl living in China. She posted pictures of herself in a social website and suddenly became an overnight internet sensation. It is said that many Koreans wanted to befriends her after seeing her pictures (and I wonder why... =_=).

But soon people began to question her 'perfectly-perfect' looks and many accused her purposely faking the photos.

OMG, you can totally tell whether the photos are fake or real, of course it's fake!
it is obviously Photoshopped!

For one sec, I thought the face is real but if you stare for 5 to 60 seconds- you can tell her face doesn't match well with the body. Her face is too small, eyes too big, no facial lines whatsoever and not even trace of shadows on her face, it's just unnaturally flawless (specially the last pic).

And she has already ADMIT this herself, it's all the wonder of Photoshop.This is her without too much Photoshop;

and this is her without Photoshop;

I think she still look pretty and at least; more 'human'.

It's said that many guys were heart-broken after knowing that the doll girl doesn't really exist.
You poor boys~ What can you expect? Only Yuna from Final Fantasy can look that perfect, and HELLO, it's called 'FANTASY' for a reason! =P
Just accept girls the way we are, okay?

p/s: I want to go back to UK but I don't want to go back to UK, 

I know I'm contradicting myself.

My little theory on Marriage ~(o_O)~

When two or more girls get together, the subject of 'marriage' will pop out no matter how pointless it seems to discuss about it, since neither of us are getting married -at the moment- or even have a steady boyfriend.


I always try my best to avoid talking about marriage when I'm hanging out with my girl-friends, cuz I hate it when girls always talk about boys, love and all that dreamy-dreamy stuff while boys generally talk about football, video games and what's the latest gadget in town~

- it just make boys look so cool and girls look so laaame... =_= it's not fair!


BUt I'll make an exception today,
cuz I wanna talk about my theory on teenagers and marriage..
(yeah, it sounds BIG but actually... not really)


Based on my observation (lol), I think how teens react to marriage is greatly influence by their parents marriage. (dang, this is my thesis statement, haha)


I mean, youngsters who are so eager to get married usually have parents who were married in early age and have a happy and great relationship. While those who are a bit hesitate to get married probably comes from a problematic family.

Do I make any sense? Do you agree with me?

I can relate this theory to people around me, remember my Netherlands friend who were born through sperm donation? She told me that she keeps seeing potential in boys whenever she looks at them (Ex: Can this boy be a good husband? Can he be a good father?) These questions keeps playing in her mind causing her to fear the idea of getting married to someone. She can't seems to understand how two people can love each other that they can spend their rest of life together. Well, considering her background, I can understand why she thinks that way. Her father doesn't live with her so she can't imagine how boys can be a good father once they're married.

Annnd I have lots of friends whose parents got married early and have a happy life together and this has cause their children to plan on getting married at younger age as well. They have seen how everything work out fine for their parents and automatically believe that everything will turn out fine for them too.So, that's why they are too excited to get married.

BUT (!) careful, just because your parents have a great marriage it doesn't guarantee that you will have that perfect happy marriage too,, and if your parents had had a broken marriage, it doesn't mean that yours will be a bad one too.. everything has been planned by God and He knows what's best for us, rite?

 (of course, this is not 100% correct and lots of other factors count too...)

Well,,, guess that's all for my not so 'awesome' theory!
I hope I didn't offend anyone,
My only intention is just to share what I had in mind;
and sure we all can talk about things that we feel like talking,
whether it's about boys, marriage, football, video games or the latest gadget in town~
am-so-absolutely cool about it

Inappopriate Drama.

Baru2 ni ada terbaca pasal filem "Hantu Bonceng" lakonan Zizan yang dikatakan menghina Islam. Xtau nak cakap ape sbb x tengok lagi movie tu.. ada orang cakap best, ada orang cakap membazir duit je pergi tengok.. tp dengar kata kutipannya dah cecah RM5 juta dalam masa 5 hari... wow...well, biasalah kat Malaysia ni filem2 camtu la yang paling laku.. kadang2 bosan dengan genre filem kt negaraku yg tercinta ni.. asyik2 hantu, mat rempit, gangster, anak mami...hantu, mat rempit, gangster, anak mami... bila ler nk kuar cerita yang 'bijak' sket...

Tapi ni nak cerita pasal "drama yang menghina Islam"... x sure la nak kata "menghina" cuz that word is pretty harsh.. anyway, ingat x lagi drama Dunia Baru kat tv3 dulu-dulu? Yang lakonan Elyana tu... actually x minat sangat pon cerita tu tp dalam x minat2 tu ada banyak episod gak yg aii tengok..hehehe

Antara part yang dirasakan (atau mungkin perasaanku saja?) inappropriate ialah watak Pierre Andre sebagai Mohd Adif yang digambarkan awal2 cerita sbg seorang yang 'pious' dan diberi didikan agama secukopnya oleh ibu dia yg ala2 ustazah tu... (yang slalu mengeja word 'keberkatan' tu..lol..) dan dia juga digambarkan sbg sorang yg awkward dgn pompuan sbb dia kan alim... tp bila dah duduk kt universiti tu, tiba2 watak dia berubah... makin sosial dan makin intim dgn pompuan. Ak pon x sure apa yg nk disampaikan pengarah, adakah dia nk bgtau yg si Adif ni berpura-pura alim dengan ibunya saja walhal di luar dia sebenarnya 'normal' seperti remaja2 lain.. or dia nak tunjukkan orang alim pon sebenarnya boleh bercampur dengan budak2 pompuan dan enjoy sakan macam org lain... idk. Tp yang pasti, ini mengelirukan penonton dan apa mesej positif yg nk disampaikan?

Watak Anne sbgai Madihah yg bertudung dan seorang yang gila2 dan clumsy. 

Dalam drama tu dia ada join persatuan yang ala2 macam usrah dan dia cakap dia sangat berminat dengan agama.Tp dalam drama tu dia pakai tudung ikat dekat leher jer... dan ada satu part tu dia kuar rushing nk pergi mana ntah and terlupa pakai tudung..(pernahke anda terlupa pakai tudung bila nak kuar bandar?) pastu terserempak plak dengan sorang kawan lelaki dia... n budak tu cakap something like, "eh Madihah..wah, lainla muka kau kalau kau x pakai tudung..." Tp xsure gakla... maybe watak Madihah dalam cerita ni sorang yg baru2 nk pakai tudung? tp ntah nape ak terasa pengarah semacam mempersendakan tudung jer..idk??

Watak Opie lakonan Elyana... ada satu scene dimana budak2 universiti tu ramai2 pergi sembahyang kat masjid.. x igt la solat terawih ke or solat Isyak sbb time tu malam. Habis jer solat, si Opie ni dengan still bertelekung berlari2 jumpa Adif kat bahagian luar tempat sembahyang lelaki.. xtau la apa sbbnya tp mmg x appropriate langsung scene ni sbb org2 laki tgh kuar masjid and si Opie ni dengan selamber and excitednye melambai, memanggil, berlari dan berborak dengan Adif dekat pintu masuk tempat solat lelaki.. x tau la nk describe cmne tp agak x kena disitu dan kalau pengarah nk cakap yg wtk Opie ni kurang alert dengan hal2 agama, xla plak si Adif tu tegur; "emmm awk...pompuan xleh masuk sini... sini tempat org lelaki..." or something similar supaya penonton tau benda tu salah.

Maybe ada banyak lagi tp ini je lah yg ak ingat2.. lgpon drama ni dh lama.. time tgk kt TV tu mmg la ada rasa 'eeiii....this is not right' tp sbb xde dgr org lain kata ape2..so, ak pon x pikir2kan sgt la. Maybe itu cuma perasaan ak jer ...and pengarah sebenarnya x berniat pon nak mempersendakan agama.. tp, cuba korang tgk video kat bawah ni:




Don't ya feel anything???? This is from Dunia Baru the Movie and ak teringat ada scene dalam drama Dunia Baru, diorang buat concert kat universiti dan si Adif pon menyanyikan lagu Sepohon Kayu dengan style rock yg sama dlm vid ni. What's the point?? Is this supposed to be funny??

Super old movies bring back memories ^__^

Have you ever try to search for old movies or TV shows that you used to watch when you're very little?
Omg, I loove doing that!

Last time, I tried to search for one old movie that I watched a long, long long long time ago.
It's hard to search when you only have some bits of images floating in your head, but that's what makes it fun!
p/s: This movie have been bugging me for ages!           

 (One of my 'secret super power' is I never forget any movies I watched. Ever.

I can remember super duper old movies that I watched when I'm 5 although I might just remember one scene from the movie. lol.)

Google:


 "Movie about a young boy who went into a haunted house and he saw a man in a bunny costume, he screamed and became bald, later his hair started to grow back, he's happy but the hair grow non stop, his friend helped cut his hair in class, he was walking in a storm and his long hair got stuck in the bushes, his hair grow so long it comes out of his pants and when he yells stop, the hair stopped growing, in another scene, one man was painting a picture of the haunted house with a brush and the picture become real and he walks into the picture into the house and saw the man dressed in a bunny costume"


Mr Google must think I'm on some kind of drug for typing this nonsense, but these are the only things I can remember about the movies and I really, really want to watch it again!

I can't believe Mr Google managed to find the movie for me, you are incredible, Google!


The movie is called;

The Peanut Butter Solution (1985)



Like.. honestly? What a lame title for such a freaky movie. =_=

Watching the trailer.. it got every scene that I remember! Except the man dressed in a bunny costume.. I must got it mixed up with different movies,lol.

I remember when I watched this (idk how old I was at that time, the movie was released in 1985... so that makes me '-5 years old'?) this movie scared the hell out of me!
and it supposed to be a comedy??? No way!


Ahh.. I miss watching movies as a little kid.

I love you, I really do.

I'm sorry that I'm not a good friend.
I really love my friends. I really do.

I'm sorry that I am so wrapped up in my own world,
that I forgot to appreciate, those who have been so kind to me.
Looking back to the past, there are so many things that I regret doing.
things that might have hurt you, things that might have upset you.
But I can't turn back the time, no matter how much I want to.
I can only say how sorry I am.

Even then, I don't have the gut to face you and
say "I'm sorry, and I love you!"
I always have problems to express my emotions. This is just... me.

Friends,
although
I won't call you often, and I won't hanging out with you much,
but you're always in my mind,
and I will always be here for you.
I just need you to know that.



I'm trying to change, to be a better person.

Sperm Bank.

I don't like babies. No, I like babies, but babies hate me, lol. Sometimes I get annoyed when people (especially girls) get all freak out when they see a cute baby. What's the big deal?? Everyone is cute when they're babies. But although I'm evil and I look like I like to eat babies but I still want to have kids to look after me, and give me money when I'm old. Quite a selfish thought, but it's partly true..hehe.


I have a friend in Netherlands and we always talk through emails. I told her that I want to have children (in the future) but don't think that I want to have husband. I was really joking, I didn't mean that, obviously. 

Then she told me it's possible 0-o. She herself was made that way. She told me that her mother wanted a child but did not want to get married, so she asked her male friend to donate sperm and after some process in the hospital, her mother got pregnant and give birth to her. Sometimes she feels sad that she doesn't have a 'normal' family, but at least she knows that her mom really wants her and is willing to go to that length to have her.

I told her that it's not weird or wrong at all for people to do that. p/s: I have to take care her feelings. Love have no boundaries. Technically, the man is still her father and at least she got to see him once in a while and know him. It's better than having a random donor as your father. But, still, I think it might be a little awkward 0_0~

Well, I know the right way for us, Muslim, is to go for adoption instead of to the sperm bank and withdraw some sperms. Imagine if..let's say, 20 couples went to the bank and get the same sperms (from one man), so wouldn't it be that all the babies born will be half sisters and half brothers?? But childless couple in foreign countries wouldn't mind using this method as long as they can have their own babies.

Well, some people need to pay a very high price to get children and we know that a child is God's precious gift to us.... So..yeah. I really don't know any nice or perfect words to wrap up this entry.. this is pretty random =_='


k, take care^^

Life is sweet... with little bits of sour and bitter and everything!

nyan!

Omg, can't believe I'm currently lying around my house, doing nothing.. it's feel as if yesterday I was walking in the streets of UK.. and now, I'm back in Malaysia! It still feels like dream.. maybe because I've been dreaming about home too many times..haha

I don't know what am I going to do in this three months time. Working? Relaxing? Studying? erkk..

And yep, it's hard to believe but I started to miss UK already..what? honestly the only thing that I miss is the 17 degree Celsius weather.

I am a bit guilty for leaving my blog behind eversince I went back home,, though when I'm alone in my room in UK, this blog keeps me occupied. But I seriously have nothing to tell, my life is quite in a .. 'pause mode' for the moment. Nothing exciting happens. Guess you can say my life currently is really dull and boring but I like it that way^^. Just having time to spend with family at home is good enough for me, I don't need some reckless adventure at the moment, lol

And also because I'm using my sister's laptop for internet, well, you know when you're using somebody else's laptop, it kinda limits the things that you could do, if ya' get what I mean.

I've beeen watching too much anime, too much dramas and too much youtube till I got really fat. Ouch, just scratch the 'fat' word.. just forget that I ever call myself fat. (- . -")

Ahhh....I miss my friends but I'm too lazy to go online. I hope they'll understand ^-^

I'll try to write as often as I can, just for the sake of filling in the posts for July, August, September.. but, I doubt I would =P.

Lastly...

I notice there are too many sad posts from my friends on Facebook, Blogs ect, ect.. =(

All I can say is, this life is not perfect, it can't never be, for we are human. But it's the ONLY life that we have, so make the most out of it, don't waste it for stupid things. Let the past go, we don't live for it anymore, we live for this moment, and we live for the future.

errrr.. I hope this sentences make sense.. k, see ya!