Happy x Sad

But.. what if the 'thing' that makes me sad, is also the same 'thing' that makes me happy?

a proposal.

I'm 5 days late, wuuu..

"There is a popular tradition in UK that a woman may propose marriage to a man on February 29. If the man refuses, he then is obligated to give the woman money or buy her a dress. In upper-class societies in Europe, if the man refuses marriage, he then must purchase 12 pairs of gloves for the woman, suggesting that the gloves are to hide the woman's embarrassment of not having an engagement ring. (lol)"
(sourse: wiki)

As soon as we found out about this tradition- woman can propose to a man on a leap day and more likely won't be rejected- my friends and I started to aim on any cute boys on the street to propose....not! =P

 ...............

Okay, so we were just being girls and were fascinated by the idea and my friend keep asking me,"Faiqah, who are you going to propose?" and I said,"What? me propose? heck no!"

........but I ran home as fast as I could after class to propose to somebody, hehehehe

But then as soon as I reached my room, my sister send me a message saying that she wants to Skype with me, alright.. so I opened Skype and told her that I wanna call somebody.

 Hello

 Hello

 Tau x hari ni hari apa?

Hari ni 29 Februari 2012...

 Tau x hari ni, kalau ikut tradisi kat UK, pompuan boleh propose lelaki..

 ooo..

  hmm.. ok, tu jer nak cakap.

( my sister who's watching through Skype dah gelak2)

Jadi ni nak propose saya la ni? Terharunya saya..

X ah, awak tu bukan org UK, ni utk org UK jer.. :P ...ok, bye!


LOL...
  so I did - did something memorable last 29th February, I try to propose a guy, well, kinda.
people say you should do something extraordinary that day, something that you won't do everyday, so I guess that would do, hihi.

29th Feb 2012. I'm 22, teasing a guy to marry me.
29th Feb 2016. I'm 26, hoping to be somebody's wife.
(kikiki,, kalau dunia masih ada n nyawa masih ada dan jodoh ada, insya-Allah)


I just don't really care anymore,
juzz go with the flow,
kalau ada, adalah, kalau xde, xpe.. hehehe

Menyerahkan urusan hidup kepada Sang Pencipta
Kerana Dia yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diri ini ^__^

Description.

She has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice
smooth skin and a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep
her skin clean and pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and
make up, but taken care of her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby.
She is good at it and tend to look younger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman.
She looks nice in either Jeans or night gown. She thinks woman is
equal to man. Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will
not leave you far behind. She will try not to make you feel like you
are competed or defeated in any games she plays with you even she is
winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can
not decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her
schedule very well in all cases.

She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She
likes to dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery
scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and
mostly win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could
argue and once a while give you a smile also.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself.
She can not decide what is right and wrong for her, because
everything has a good side and a bad side. She cares for other
people ,or what you feel as much as her own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well. If you ask her
for help or advice, she will help you except if she does not like your
guts. She can change you and make you think you change by yourself
without her influence.

She'll never interfere with your
privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends.
Even she cares about how much money she has left in her bank
account, she will never forget to let you know how much she cares for
you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it
well. But if you expect her to fear you, then you are
wrong. She is a strong woman even she looks at you with that sweet
innocent pairs of baby's looks and may loose you (let you win) in a
few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way
is using her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or
treat her like a bubble head. You have to move forward toward her with
confident and secure. Show her that you are a kind , polite and a
real gentleman. Be a slow hand or else you might get smack!

*Best description of me so far... even I cant explain myself that well...lol

 prolly 80-90% are really a spot on!

I dont really believe in zodiac things but i think there could be any scientific explanation on how we can categorize human behavior and personality by looking on their zodiac. 

check yours; http://zodiac-world.blogspot.com/2006/06/sagittarius-woman.html

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I'm not sure if I can ever have you... but just so you know,

This is awkward and so unnecessary but...

How does it feel to be in love?

I think it feels terrible..boo

Tiresome. when all you wanna think is him.

you spend so much time thinking about him. you really wanna stop but you just can't.

suddenly everything else doesn't interest you anymore.

He's in your thoughts everytime you wake up in the morning

and is still there till you close your eyes at night.

I don't wanna be in love, I hate it, like really, really HATE it! but but, is there anything I can do?

omg, I seriously hate it! I got my own life to live....

I don't have time to care about b.o.y.s~ like why should I?

I love myself, I don't like boys, they're nasty and , urm..weird?

don't make me fall in love with one of them, please, please.........

omg, what is this feeling? terrible! yuck!

I'm a very cool girl, I won't fall in love with a BOY

not now... 

not in zillion years!

p/s: people, please don't take this post seriously.

consider me .. urmm.. practicing a drama script or writing my own novel or something.

taa~

I love tagging games, yeah!

sori sori sori, sy lmbat.. >_<... thanks sudi tag =))

Terms and condition~:

1.You must post these rules.
2.Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3.Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post. And create eleven new questions for the people you tagged to answer.
4.You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post.
5.Go to their page and tell them you have tagged HIM/HER
6.No tag back!
7.No stuff in the tagging section about "YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU ARE READING THIS" YOU LEGITIMATELY (a.k.a REALLY, TRUST, WITH ALL HONESTY) have tagged 11 people.

so, here it is :)

11 things about me

. I have Peter Pan obsession and mybe Peter Pan syndrome as well, haha.. i'm really scared of getting old.like really.

. I like going to Youtube just watching videos of make-up tutorials or boys styling their hair, lol.

. If I DON'T LIKE you, I wont talk a word with you, if I REALLY REALLY LIKE you, I'll talk a LOT with you, and you cant stop me hah ^^

. Boys that I always fall in love with, are either :
       1.Underage   2.Anime   3.Gay  4.in rare cases; lesbian.

.I can drink up to 10 glasses of coffee/tea/Nescafe/hot choc/Horlick/Espresso/ everyday. I'm a really really heavy drinker.>_<

. I can cry reading Doraemon.

 . I have problems in maintaining a relationship with someone, cuz Im very forgetful. I can be friends with you today and forget completely about you after some time.

. The first time I cried in UK was because I miss my bunny,haha.

. I can't cook for crap. I need to look at tutorials on Youtube just to make an omelet.

. I will drink only Coke if I'm sick. but then people say Coke isn't good for you so I change to Seven Up. I cant eat anything, so basically getting sick is the fastest way for me to loose weight,lol

. I love being crazy, and random, and unique, and basically just do what I wanna do without thinking so much, Im not a 'trend' follower but rather juz stick to what I like.... but I really dont like people calling me weird, it makes me feel so loowww, like I'm not fit with 'em, so dont call me weird, errr even if I am weird.

Questions from Husna

Your last watched movies?  

      

Last Quarter (2004)

Havent finish it yet, but I like the Gothic feeling in the movie =)) and Hyde is so &*^%&* cute!

 

Your favourite colors?

 I know people will probably think I love PINK but.. really, I like all colors the same.

Post a picture of you and your loved one, two,three.
My love one and two arent here =(, but here's my pic with my love three,, hehe 

  gosh, I suck at taking my own picture...  o_0

Your aim now?

  going to the kicthen and make Nescafe..hehehe jk, just enjoying every little things I have n basically, trying to be happy and contented every day.

Things that you really hate to remember now

Thinking out loud in front of a Malaysian who I thought was Japanese. omg. 

Quote that you always hold on to

That everything happens for a reason, always look for the reason! 

Why do you love your blog

It allows me to tell stuff to people, friends, family without 'directly' speaking to them. I'm better at writing than speaking, and I don't really like talking to people directly, so blogging is how I reach them. And I hate Facebook, sooo many 'attention seekers', lol..  blog is the only place left for me,, to be me!^^

What do you think about my blog

I hate it when it was filled with sadness, I love it when it was filled with happiness. I dont like reading sad stories on my friends blogs =(  hopefully, there will be more happy and silly stories in your blog, hehe

 Describe your bestfriend in three words.

WHERE ARE YOU???? 

Blog that you really love to read and blogwalking

My sister's blog, Ada n Husna's blog (I wasn't tryin to be nice , I mean it! lol) Aina's, Wani's, Hayat's -----these are 'hardcore' bloggers, lol 

You. 5 years ahead. what do you see.

Me, 26 years old... holy cow, I'm so old!,,,, will I still like watching anime? will I still have crush on L and Peter Pan?

lol, Im probably working my head off to save money so that I can go travelling around the world with my family..hihi

i wanna continue this tagging game, but all my friends has been tag! so, yeah.. it ends here, i guess =(

I love you, I really do.

I'm sorry that I'm not a good friend.
I really love my friends. I really do.

I'm sorry that I am so wrapped up in my own world,
that I forgot to appreciate, those who have been so kind to me.
Looking back to the past, there are so many things that I regret doing.
things that might have hurt you, things that might have upset you.
But I can't turn back the time, no matter how much I want to.
I can only say how sorry I am.

Even then, I don't have the gut to face you and
say "I'm sorry, and I love you!"
I always have problems to express my emotions. This is just... me.

Friends,
although
I won't call you often, and I won't hanging out with you much,
but you're always in my mind,
and I will always be here for you.
I just need you to know that.



I'm trying to change, to be a better person.

♒ I'm Alive and Kicking!! ♒

 

I don't know how to write fancy introduction, so I'm juz gonna skip to the (not-so)important parts. hehe.

When I woke up today,  I had a major tummy pain and had to walk around the house, crouching like a gorilla. I don't know what's the cause of it but I think this is God's punishment for me- yesterday my third sister had a major tummy pain and she had to walk around the house like a gorilla and I was laughing and teasing her, and now I know exactly how she feels.. oooOOOOoo


And I still have that annoying acne/pimple problems (!!!) even though I've been trying to put oatmeal on my face -as suggested by bubzbeauty on Youtube- and yet, they still won't go away! a few days ago, I had a pimple right on the center of my nose, and it's red and painful and it sorta make me look like a clown. Thank God it's healed now. Sadly, I think I shall still be fighting pimples until I reach 60.

Internet

Lots of things had happened in the past few months even though I'm just literally lying around doing nothing at home. We just had a major internet crisis a few days ago where we couldn't connect to the internet AT ALL. I think me and my sisters are gradually becoming crazy for that reason, since internet is our only source of entertainment, and I couldn't bear to watch 'great' shows on TV like Ana Lu'Lu or You Saka (...) because they are sooo 'great' that I think I'm gonna puke. I even took out my '100-years old and broken' ACER laptop to watch my super duper old videos. Sniff~ We were that desperate =_="

But luckily our internet problem has been resolved, and now they're as good as new! yayiyay! =D 

 My Catssss!!

When I left Malaysia a year ago, we only had 2 cats, now we have a new member! She's pretty, she's clean, she's the most adorable cat in my house and she hates me, verry verry much, hahahahaaha!

I think she hates me because I like to hug her reaaal tight and took her ugly pictures like this one:

Puhahaha.. omg, she's sooo totally gonna hate me for putting this up, oh well, you're too cute!! Nyaa~!

She also has an older brother, which I don't fancy much but he's quite unique too. He has the biggest face I ever see for a cat and he likes to look at me with eyes 3/4 open with his humongous nose, and he kinda reminds me of Doraemon. 

Raya

Yeah, so we're gonna celebrate Hari Raya in just a few days, but my family have the worst Raya preparation ever. I think it's mainly because everyone is busy doing their own thing.. my sister is busy with her trial exams, my other sister is busy with her university stuff, and my mom is busy helping her and I'm busy watching them being busy.

 Going back!!

I'll return to UK in around two weeks and.. IDK.. part of me want to continue my exciting adventures in UK and the other part just wanna stay home forever.I love being at home, I wasn't bored not even for a second. Home is the bestest place to be, right?

*Re-read my post*

O-m-g, this is terrible. It's all about me and Faiqah and Faiqah. WhatcanIdo...I just MISS the joy of blogging and telling random stuff and now I'm writing nonsense things, again.

Ah well, I supposed I should be wishing everyone "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin" now, right? But, nay.. that would be too Cliché.. lol..

 Juz kidding, 

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin
 have a blast, everyone! ٩(̃-̮̮̃-)۶

Life is sweet... with little bits of sour and bitter and everything!

nyan!

Omg, can't believe I'm currently lying around my house, doing nothing.. it's feel as if yesterday I was walking in the streets of UK.. and now, I'm back in Malaysia! It still feels like dream.. maybe because I've been dreaming about home too many times..haha

I don't know what am I going to do in this three months time. Working? Relaxing? Studying? erkk..

And yep, it's hard to believe but I started to miss UK already..what? honestly the only thing that I miss is the 17 degree Celsius weather.

I am a bit guilty for leaving my blog behind eversince I went back home,, though when I'm alone in my room in UK, this blog keeps me occupied. But I seriously have nothing to tell, my life is quite in a .. 'pause mode' for the moment. Nothing exciting happens. Guess you can say my life currently is really dull and boring but I like it that way^^. Just having time to spend with family at home is good enough for me, I don't need some reckless adventure at the moment, lol

And also because I'm using my sister's laptop for internet, well, you know when you're using somebody else's laptop, it kinda limits the things that you could do, if ya' get what I mean.

I've beeen watching too much anime, too much dramas and too much youtube till I got really fat. Ouch, just scratch the 'fat' word.. just forget that I ever call myself fat. (- . -")

Ahhh....I miss my friends but I'm too lazy to go online. I hope they'll understand ^-^

I'll try to write as often as I can, just for the sake of filling in the posts for July, August, September.. but, I doubt I would =P.

Lastly...

I notice there are too many sad posts from my friends on Facebook, Blogs ect, ect.. =(

All I can say is, this life is not perfect, it can't never be, for we are human. But it's the ONLY life that we have, so make the most out of it, don't waste it for stupid things. Let the past go, we don't live for it anymore, we live for this moment, and we live for the future.

errrr.. I hope this sentences make sense.. k, see ya!

'Cause none of us were Angels...

-There's a lot of things I still don't understand-

Kinda sad if you go watch any religious videos on Youtube, or read any religious forums, news, blogs.. ect,ect.. there's always gonna be a fight between people. People of the same religions, people of different religions, people with no religions...

It's good to discuss on the matter of religions, I mean, it helps to clear misunderstandings and stuff,
but some people are just soo immaturely rude.

If you go on any Hijab videos on Youtube, (even on videos like hijab wearing tutorials,ect)
There's ALWAYS gonna be some people randomly comment;

"Why do Muslim girl need to cover their head? I think that's silly"

and as usual, there will be hundred responses from
angry Muslims and then the other non-Muslims will also join the fight
and you will have endless comments of cursing and swearing
as well as Quran and Bible quotes~
on a video of a girl, giving tutorial on how to wear a hijab pashmina style.

What I'm trying to say here, 

Why can't you be more mature and respectful?

I truly believe we need to respect each other,

regardless our differences in belief, religions, races, nationality, gender, age.. ect.

I mean, come on, 'discrimination' is so out-of-style

it's 2011, people! Why do you have to act like a bunch of primitive?

Still don't get what I'm trying to say?

I just don't agree the way some Muslim people explain on our religion to others,
like this one here;

"That's because it's stated in our Quran! don't mess with us, you better shut your mouth up!"

-Amina89

" I hope all of you who dare to insult Muslims will burn in hell, ha ha ha!"

- Islam4life990

"Get the f**k out of here, you non-believers, don't insult Islam, you f**kers, fs%Eg3v&%!!!!

-muslim_boy776                                                                                                                                          

Aand..those are not real comments and real names but
they resembles pretty much like the comments on the videos.

Sometimes I just don't understand people; who declares to the whole world,

"ooh, I'm a real Muslim and I pray and I love God" and all that 

but didn't act like a Muslim SHOULD ACT.

Come on, you should portray the beauty of Islam through your behaviour.

How are people gonna respect Islam if the Muslim themselves are so painfully rude.

I think if you explain them about Islam nicely and politely,

people are gonna respect you more, no doubt about that.

I don't think a Muslim who really obeys Allah 

would even use the word F**k to scold the non-Muslim,,

no matter how angry s/he was.

hmmm...

K-Pop Rant.

If you're a big fan of anything, please don't proceed.
I'm bashing K-pop culture in this post.

Yeah, I used to be a BIG fan of K-Pop, a long time ago...before it wasn't so overrated like today. 

I don't really have problem with people liking K-pop, we all have our own interest and preference- and I respect that. Things started to mess up when the horrible k-pop virus starting to go out of control and poisoning all my friends, taking them away from me. T_T

Now, they are all very sick,they seems to be unaware of their surrounding, they communicate in weird language, they hallucinating and talk about their 'oppas' 24/7- and totally ignoring me sometimes. I wish they can see how worried I am, when my dear friends are starting to show signs of unhealthy obsession.

People can easily trapped into K-pop obsession due to several reasons. Handsome face, beautiful face, catchy songs, cool and cute image... and lots more. Yes, it was mesmerizing at first, but soon you'll notice how fake and cliche everything is.
 
The song......

Back then, K-pop groups were unique, versatile and held strongly to their own concept. 
Now, every songs sound the same. Everything is repetitive, the same tunes and words,
The voices are heavily auto-tuned, with loud techno beat in the background...if I listen to a new Korean song on the radio, I can never guess whos the singer because they all sound exactly the same. 
But there are still some good Korean songs with meaningful lyrics and beautiful melody, just not so popular.
And what's with the exaggerating, viral music videos??  plus- with the overly dramatic dance moves that sometimes aren't even fit the song.


Sexist image  

Can I just say that K-pop girl bands are just soo annoying? 
I believe K-pop is just so sexist. If you can understand the word. 
The girls are skinny as stick, wearing super short skirts or underwear-like-pants, dancing and shaking their butt to the stupid songs, trying too hard to look cute and innocent~pffttt
Some can't even sing that good!
I guess that's why our boys like K-pop so much~
I can't stand some girls singing and faking their voice to sound as if they're 5 year olds (For the sake of being cute)... oppa! oppa! oppareul saranghae~ Seriously, stop. you sounds so retarded.

And..What's with the over-revealing clothes? I don't think they help people to sing any better~
You're just attracting some perverts and old men to drool over you.
And please, they need to stop stereotyping 'beauty'!
Beauty doesn't necessarily means you have to be super skinny, double eye lids (fighting over eye lids is just hell stupid), long stick-like legs, flawless skin and all that.
All they do are just encouraging girls to get plastic surgery!

Put your clothes back, boys!

Another thing is, what with all the fuss about the 'chocolate abs' and everything? It's gross! 
"omg, look, xxx'x honey abs! kyaa~" " xx's famous 6-pack!! I'm gonna die~"
what's wrong with girls today? So embarrassing looking at boy's body and brag about it to the whole world.
Seriously, what's this has to do with singing??

Fakeness.

Yup, one thing I don't like about k-pop is how certain things are just soo fake. 
I'm sick of how they are just pretending and acting in front of camera~ everyone is trying so hard to get attention.
The guys were acting all cute and that~
The girls were laughing as loud as they can~ and smile as -w i d e- as they can.
and some of them were acting so stupid, it's disturbing for some reason. (Apparently because 'dork' is in at the moment, so everyone wants to be dork) 

 

You so can tell if someone is naturally funny and cute, with someone who's pretending to be funny and cute. 
And what I hate most is their 'aegyo' thingy~  so annoying and fake! urghhh
Seriously, 'acting cute' is just getting so overrated and annoying each day.


Their over-acting fans

Some fans really need to chill out.
I don't really like how certain k-pop fans were over-acting over matters that have nothing to do with their life. 

A: xx goes out with xxx!!!! Omg, xxx is the ugliest girl! xx should go with xxxxx instead!

B: I think xx suits well with xxx, you're just jealous.. and btw, xxxxx is not that pretty anyway.

C: xxxxx and xxx are both ugly like noodles! Oppa xx should date me instead!


To be honest, I'm getting sick of die-hard K-pop fans especially those who are not even Korean making a war over Internet-you guys have nothing better to do eh? Why make a fuss over small matter?
It just very annoying when fans are fighting over silly things - 
when you go to Youtube, fan of SNSD are in war with fan of Wonder Girls, fan of Super Junior are enemies with fan of Anti-Super Junior. Grow up, you bunch of kids! 
There are more serious things in the world that you should fight about. My goodness.
That's why people were saying; K-pop fans are the most highly sensitive group of people in the world.
Mess with them and you're dead.
It's actually fine to be a fan, but please be a 'professional', mature fan. Don't get pissed off and declare a war whenever your 'oppa' is being oppressed or anything.

K-pop used to be so cool.

but not anymore.
Now, they're just too focusing on image, face and those silly stuff
the new artists just want to debut for fame and fun
instead of exploring their talent or selling their music.
The handsome and pretty one get famous easily,
The real talented one get neglected and lost.
the idols are just being exploited by the company
who only interested in making money and profits.
one day, you'll get bored and left, just like I did.